August 4 2014, 4pm ...2 weeks ago
The path that leads to where i don’t want to be.
The countdown has started. Exactly 30 days are left for my life to start again but this time as a student, an Engineer-gonna-be.
It was so relieving to know that i’ll be going to where people like me, who cherich sciences and give it their best, go. I can’t lie, i was so happy about it, especially that four of my friends will be there, too.
But as soon as i think about it, it’s not what i really want. Not as a university but, as a way things will go like.
I have wronged someone, I couldn’t say sorry. I was too coward.. Too shy, maybe, Too foolish, that’s for sure.
But it’s not about you. It’s about me who’s going to miss all the fun thinking of all the things that could have happened and all the ways that could make you my friend.
But it’s okay. I’ve been wronged, too, but look at them, they survived.
June 30 2014, 4am ...1 month ago
At this time of the day all that comes to my head is our old golden friendship that we couldn’t keep for so long.
The sleepless nights that i’ve spent waiting for you to show up and ending up writing a song, taking some photographs, watching an anime, counting stars, waiting for the sunshine and learning your language because you were never there whenever i needed you and because after all you were my best friend, the one i never wanted to lose, and the one i let go of.
Today again i think of all those bad yet wonderful moments i spent alone believing that you are still there for me as a friend, somewhere else in this world, and it really beats me, do you sometimes think of me as well?
Either way, i don’t want to ever end these feelings because only when i think of you i can feel alive.
And that’s why i believe that i shouldn’t have made any friends..